i do the same but my “visualization” is very very strange, i don’t see things as much as i feel them and just know stuff like colour and texture and whatnot, and it’s fairly low fidelity most of the time (like a low res image scaled up so it’s blurry but still recognizable), but at the same time it… feels like i see things in my mind?
I think the best way i can explain it is like if you could feel colours when touching them, and i’m running my hands over a relief print of things. It’s not vision but it’s also basically the same.
like i said it’s weird and that’s just the closest approximation, what i actually experience is more of an extra sense akin to proprioception but that sense is itself hard to notice if you’re not familiar with it (proprioception is how you know where your limbs are, so you can touch your fingers without seeing them). I’m not literally experiencing a sense of touch when i imagine things.
And i don’t literally see anything overlaid ontop of my regular vision with my eyes open, if i close my eyes and try to visualize things i can manage a faint silhouette against the weird noise you see when it’s completely dark, and i can make it move and change to a minor degree.
But if i imagine a pipe curving to the left it’s like a 3d model in a computer without a display, i’m not seeing it but at the same time it’s very much there and i can… see it without seeing it? It doesn’t make any more sense to me either, it’s kind of a baffling thing when i pay attention to it like this…
I’m not just omnisciently aware of the thing i’m imagining, it’s very much from a normal perspective, but it’s sorta like it’s a wireframe model so i can also see the rear side of things, and again that’s just the best way i can think of to try to explain how the actual experience is…
And all this is on a separate mental… channel? display? that i can overlay on reality if i want, which is when it really becomes an extension of proprioception because i can “feel” the thing(s) around me despite not seeing jack diddly squat.
I should also note that i have pretty good audio imagination, if i’m in a completely silent room my mind is basically an mp3 player, it feels like i’m replaying things in perfect fidelity though if i pay a bit of attention to it i do notice that it’s pretty obviously not actually perfect fidelity, it’s just what my brain thinks perfect fidelity sounds like, which is a pretty wild thing to experience. My brain is studying itself and giving itself criticism…
i do the same but my “visualization” is very very strange, i don’t see things as much as i feel them and just know stuff like colour and texture and whatnot, and it’s fairly low fidelity most of the time (like a low res image scaled up so it’s blurry but still recognizable), but at the same time it… feels like i see things in my mind?
I think the best way i can explain it is like if you could feel colours when touching them, and i’m running my hands over a relief print of things. It’s not vision but it’s also basically the same.
So. If you visualise like a curve you feel the curve bend to the left or right rather than see it? Like touching the surface with your hands?
like i said it’s weird and that’s just the closest approximation, what i actually experience is more of an extra sense akin to proprioception but that sense is itself hard to notice if you’re not familiar with it (proprioception is how you know where your limbs are, so you can touch your fingers without seeing them). I’m not literally experiencing a sense of touch when i imagine things.
And i don’t literally see anything overlaid ontop of my regular vision with my eyes open, if i close my eyes and try to visualize things i can manage a faint silhouette against the weird noise you see when it’s completely dark, and i can make it move and change to a minor degree.
But if i imagine a pipe curving to the left it’s like a 3d model in a computer without a display, i’m not seeing it but at the same time it’s very much there and i can… see it without seeing it? It doesn’t make any more sense to me either, it’s kind of a baffling thing when i pay attention to it like this…
I’m not just omnisciently aware of the thing i’m imagining, it’s very much from a normal perspective, but it’s sorta like it’s a wireframe model so i can also see the rear side of things, and again that’s just the best way i can think of to try to explain how the actual experience is…
And all this is on a separate mental… channel? display? that i can overlay on reality if i want, which is when it really becomes an extension of proprioception because i can “feel” the thing(s) around me despite not seeing jack diddly squat.
I should also note that i have pretty good audio imagination, if i’m in a completely silent room my mind is basically an mp3 player, it feels like i’m replaying things in perfect fidelity though if i pay a bit of attention to it i do notice that it’s pretty obviously not actually perfect fidelity, it’s just what my brain thinks perfect fidelity sounds like, which is a pretty wild thing to experience. My brain is studying itself and giving itself criticism…